I am heading out shortly to take my dear old Dad for a Father's Day lunch. I can remember so many years in the past when all I wanted to do was forget about him as we had had a very volatile relationship for as long as I could remember. Now, however, he is old and needs me. I am finding that during this time in our lives it is for forgetting all the hurt and pain of the past and simply just relish this time to heal all that went before.
He sees me and his eyes light up every single time which is definitely not what is used to be. He had been a very angry man for most of my time as a child. Life didn't go the way he had envisioned and he just couldn't get over it. Of course, he took it out on both of us kids and my Mother. She passed away years ago and while for a time I thought I would just move on without him I could not do so. I wanted my kids to have a chance to know their Grandfather and now he has 2 wonderful grandchildren and a daughter that he loves.
My brother has not been so fortunate in healing this pain. He has chosen to distance himself completely and lives in another country. He has not come back to Canada for over 10 years and told me a couple of years ago that he never would. Sad actually as he is missing an important part of his own healing. But then again, he was never the kind of person who would reach out. He would just go into his own world and, now that I think about it, perhaps this works for him. We are very different Souls even though we come from the same gene pool. And, sadly he will never have the opportunity to right any of those old wrongs from his past as he chose not to father any children. I do wish him well though and truly hope that his life is moving along the way he had always envisioned it. Blessings abound....
So for today, let those old wounds fade away and give thanks for the chance at life that has been given to you through the gift of LIFE that your own father gave to you.
I mean face it, if it wasn't for your father YOU would not be here to experience all the wonders that life in human form offers.
So Happy Father's Day to all you fathers out there and happy day to all you daughters and sons.
Have a day full of wonder, joy and love.
Namaste
Sunday, June 21, 2009
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